diary

in here i will try to write daily entries of whats going on in my life and random thoughts

04.13.2025 - 10:05 AM: i forgot to write something for the past two days (whoops). anyways, my bootleg goreshit shirt arrived! i really like it, it fits me well and is nice overall. i finally figured out how to connect last fm with winamp, now every time i listen to my music im scrobbling or something, im not really sure how it works, i just want to track the music i listen to. i take sleeping pills, they were useful when i went to school and had to wake up early, but now they are just annoying. i would stop taking them, but my mom really gets worried when i dont take my pills, so im taking them for her. im planning to go to a bar to meet new people soon, most of the time i cant talk with anyone, but when im under the influence of alcohol i become talkative.

04.10.2025 - 3:02 PM: im feeling uninspired and unmotivated to do anything lately, dunno why, i have a lot of free time to do a lot of things yet i end up doing nothing at all, i guess a lot of people have the same problem as me, wierd stuff. today isnt a very different day from yesterday, the only difference is that im going to the therapist later, i need to go outside and talk to real life people, if not ill die lonley, well not really, i have internet people but still, i need real friends, tho, i dont know how people do it, whenever i try to talk to people i get extremly anxious, please somebody teache me how to talk with humans!!! (; _ ;)

04.9.2025 - 1:38 PM: first entry lole, i woke up around 10:43 AM, as soon as i got out of bed i turned on my computer, now im listening to some music while finishing up this diary page. i just ate lentils with rice, it isnt very tasty but whatever. ill probably spend the entire day watching videos or posting on 4chan (something i do almost every day). my parents want me to go to an online school, but i dont want to study!! ever since i dropped out ive been more relaxed and comfy. im waiting for a bootleg goreshit mlfaw shirt (i couldnt afford the official one from kitty on fire). i guess thats it. honestly, i dont know if anyone will read this, but if someone is, thanks for reading!! ^^