diary

in here i will try to write daily entries of whats going on in my life and random thoughts

04.25.2025 - 11:04 PM: i rewatched the entire ika musume series (s1 + s2+ mini ika specials + ova) in one sitting, my head hurts badly but its worth it, i love ika musume, she changed my life for the better or for the worst, i also streamed the episodes while i watched them, i dont know if people actually sticked with me and watched everything from the start to the end but at least some people watched a few episodes and that makes me happy.

04.24.2025 - 11:08 PM: today i didnt do anything interesting other than listening to Rrrrrrr by Reizoko Cj so ill only talk about it in this entry, dear god, what a great album, reizoko cj is one of my favorite artists, i love him, this is my second time litsening to this album, the first time i only litsened to the main tracks but today i litsened to the bonus tracks aswell, everything about this album is perfect, just look at the cover art, masterpiece.

04.23.2025 - 10:15 PM: today i tried pizza flavored doritos, they were tasty, i like them. ive been dreaming a lot lately, most of the dreams are about me being in a date or dying, i cant really remember them that well. lately iv been obssesed with this video, i love wide girl anime. ive been editing some visuals for a 20 minutes lolicore mix thing, its my first time doing visuals but i think its going okey, not the best thing in the world but im proud of it. speaking of lolicore i havent upload anything to my soundcloud in a month, ive tried to make some tracks but i end up not liking them, im doing my best.

04.21.2025 - 10:01 PM: i have not write anything in a while lol, sorry, well, i dont know to who im apologizing, nobody reads this, anyhow, i havent gone to the bar but i promise ill go this week. normally i dont do much but now im doing NOTHING because some retard decided to hack 4chan, so now one of the main places where i interacted with other people is gone :D, i tried using altchans but they suck ass. i started to look for a job, i dont have any reasons to go outside and im tired of not having friends, hopefully they email back (last time i was searching for a job they didnt respond back).

04.13.2025 - 10:05 AM: i forgot to write something for the past two days (whoops). anyways, my bootleg goreshit shirt arrived! i really like it, it fits me well and is nice overall. i finally figured out how to connect last fm with winamp, now every time i listen to my music im scrobbling or something, im not really sure how it works, i just want to track the music i listen to. i take sleeping pills, they were useful when i went to school and had to wake up early, but now they are just annoying. i would stop taking them, but my mom really gets worried when i dont take my pills, so im taking them for her. im planning to go to a bar to meet new people soon, most of the time i cant talk with anyone, but when im under the influence of alcohol i become talkative.

04.10.2025 - 3:02 PM: im feeling uninspired and unmotivated to do anything lately, dunno why, i have a lot of free time to do a lot of things yet i end up doing nothing at all, i guess a lot of people have the same problem as me, wierd stuff. today isnt a very different day from yesterday, the only difference is that im going to the therapist later, i need to go outside and talk to real life people, if not ill die lonley, well not really, i have internet people but still, i need real friends, tho, i dont know how people do it, whenever i try to talk to people i get extremly anxious, please somebody teache me how to talk with humans!!! (; _ ;)

04.9.2025 - 1:38 PM: first entry lole, i woke up around 10:43 AM, as soon as i got out of bed i turned on my computer, now im listening to some music while finishing up this diary page. i just ate lentils with rice, it isnt very tasty but whatever. ill probably spend the entire day watching videos or posting on 4chan (something i do almost every day). my parents want me to go to an online school, but i dont want to study!! ever since i dropped out ive been more relaxed and comfy. im waiting for a bootleg goreshit mlfaw shirt (i couldnt afford the official one from kitty on fire). i guess thats it. honestly, i dont know if anyone will read this, but if someone is, thanks for reading!! ^^